I look at her pictures and I want to cry . I realize what I missed out and how desperately I hadn't wanted to. I can't turn the clock back and take a major decision back. In my head I know it was the right decision but in my heart I will never ever forgive myself for it. I remember the moment I signed those papers and how I didn't want to that is etched into my brain forever. I thought of her everyday wondering how she was, was she happy had I made the right decision . I did make the right one for her but for me it will always be the wrong one.