I am totally freed from the past that has haunted me for the last 32 yrs. I finally let the past grow up and start to be a man . A man I dislike . I no longer feel like everything that happened to him was my fault. I have shucked those bonds. He has made his own mistakes in his life and having a child with him didnt affect how he turned out in his life. He's cold and unfeeling ,qualities I detessed. The book is finally finished and the guilt is gone. Hope he has a good life but never will i be with him again. I feel so free and happy .